After the lonely dinner, I got into my special room. However, I only could sit for a while and had to shut the laptop down because there was a car came to the front of the house. I could not come back into the room until Hendra went to his office.
“Hi, baby. You’re beautiful.” Hendra joyfully said as I opened the door for him. He wrapped his hand around me and kissed my lips. “Have you had dinner?”
“I have? And you?” I asked him back. He nodded gracefully. He swung his other hand and gave me a bouquet of red roses. They were my favorite flowers.
“Thank you.” I took the from him, and deeply breathed the sweet scent.
I gave the bouquet to Yuyun who was standing beside me and asked her to put the flowers in the vase then brought them to our bedroom. Feeling that Hendra’s hand was still in my waist, I knew he wanted me to join him in our room. We climbed the stairs side by side.
“Was there any problem when I wasn’t home?” He asked as we climbed the stairs.
“No, everything’s under control.” I answered easily.
“Good. I’ve got a two-year contract for Xavier’s new project here in Indonesia. He was very disappointed since you couldn’t come with me. And Annora was looking for you.” He looked at me intensely.
“Have you told them that I was sorry?” I could not look at him.
“I have. They still weren’t satisfied.” He shook his head.
“You know I hate airplane and try my best not to go travel too far by it.” I said half-truth. I hate airplane, but I loved traveling.
“I know. But before you were never mind. That was why Annora was mad.” He reported as he sighed heavily. I chose to be quiet. “How about your lunch with your friend in the afternoon, is everything okay? Darla’s still the best friend you’ve ever had?”
“She is. Lindsey and Qiana couldn’t stop teasing me, and Darla took my side like she always did.” I said happily. He shook his head again.
“Being the youngest one, you need to be ready for them to tease you.”
Hendra opened the door and asked me to get in first. He sat at the edge of the bed, then pulled me to stand between his thighs. I helped him to untie his necktie. He put his hands around my thighs and raised his head to look at my face easily. I smiled.
“Do you want to take a shower now? I’ll get the hot water ready.” I unbuttoned his shirt after I untied his necktie.
“You’re still mad at me.” He pulled me closer. I put my hands on his shoulder reflectively. I frowned, could not understand what he was going to say. “You didn’t want to go with me to London not because you’re afraid of airplane.”
“I am afraid of flying by airplane, and you know that.” I defended myself. I really hated if we had to talk about the past. That kind of past.
“It has been two years ago, Za. I beg you. I know I almost sleep with another woman and I’ve confessed my sin. There’s no reason I can use to justify my action.” He quietly confessed. “Could you, please, forgive me and stop punishing me by avoiding me? I can’t stay away from you, baby.”
“We’ve talked about this.” I quickly cut him. I tried to release myself from his hug, however, he tightened his grip.
“We have. Still, it can’t make you stop being mad at me. Tell me, what should I do to get your forgiveness? What should I do to make it right?” He pleaded.
The door knocked. Without letting me go, Hendra let who ever behind the door to get in. Liando opened the door and brought Hendra’s suitcase. My husband told him to put it near the door. Yuyun came in bringing a crystal vase with red roses in it, Hendra asked her to put it on the floor next to the door. He said good night and told them that we would not need them until the next day. After there were only both of us in the room, he looked at me.
“I love you, Za. I really love you. And I want you to be happy.” He kissed right in the spot between my breast, and then pressed his cheek on my chest. “I don’t like seeing you mad. Stop being mad at me, please. Forgive me, baby. I promise I won’t do it again. And you know that I’m faithful to you since then.”
“When you were betrayed, even just for once, the pain was awful, Hendra.” I said in a serious tone.
Two years ago we had a great fight. That day my parents were visiting. They and I fought over the same thing. Dad was mad because I mentioned Aldo’s name. After four years married with Hendra, Dad complained I was still thinking about another man who was not my husband. To fight him back, I told them something that no one knew beside them. Something that I never confessed before.
I had not love my husband. Dad’s expectation was wrong. He said that time would help me to grow in love with Hendra. However, I did not feel anything toward him except madness, disgust, and hatred. Hendra came into the living room at that perfect time. He heard every thing.
We had dinner awkwardly. Dad and Mom tried to make a conversation and Hendra talked with them nicely. They were talking as if nothing had happened before we were in the dining room. But at the second my parents weregoing home, Hendra pulled me to our bedroom and asked me to talk to him honestly. That was what I did, I told him that I did not love him. His face turned sad and hurt. He went out of the house and did not come back home that night.
The next night, he came back but did not want to see me at all. I did not mind. And for the first time, we laid down on the bed back to back. When he was fallen asleep, I check his clothes on the bathroom floor thoroughly. Nothing was wrong. The clothes scent was his.
I still felt that something was wrong, so, I went to talk to Hendra’s driver. He told me where he went, where he slept the nught before, and with whom. My heart almost stopped beating. My husband brought another woman to a hotel room. I let the man to go back to his bedroom. And I to mine.
Got into the room, I saw Hendra was sitting at the edge of the bed. His face was pale and guilt was all over it. I just stood there, leaned on the doorframe after I shut it. I closed my eyes since I did not want to see him.
Yes, I did not love him. Though, his betrayal broke my heart in pieces. All the promises and his love declaration meant nothing. He was not exclusively giving his body to me. He shared it with another woman. After Aldo’s cheating, I was hoping that Hendra would never do the same thing. However, I was wrong again. All men were alike.
Could not bear it anymore, I burst in tears. Since my feet could not hold my weight any longer, I slid down on the floor. My chest tightened and hurt. I did not know how to ease the pain. So, I just hugged my knees tightly. All of them who said that they love me were liars. In the end, they cheated and chose to live with another woman. Aldo did it. Hendra would do it, too.
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